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Saturday, June 20, 2009 9:52 PM wretched  I have millions of things running on my mind but nothing to type . I have the time in the whole world to blog but im in a rush . I want to talk about alot of issues here but i can't find the words to type it out here. I was just helping but i lost my very best girlfriend and her trust for me . I used to be a very happy girl but now im not talking and smiling like i always did back then . I had best friends but now i rarely have close friends by my side . I used to laugh and cry with my best of girlfriends but now i miss those memories . I was always so proud of being me but now i am just so afraid of exposing myself to the world . I thought i have everything but i lost almost everything with just a snap of a finger . I had always loved running and swimming around but now i prefer sitting down admiring the sunset at Marina Barrage . If only i could cancel out the Buts in those sentences . If only . I miss Grandpa . I miss Phyna . I miss Az and gang . I hate school . Im sorry Lola . I hate myself for being such a bad friend . How could i ... I hate myself for forgetting God almost all the time . I want to work . I miss basketball . I hate having regrets . I need a hug . I want chocolates now . I crave for caramel frappe . I have not eaten big breakfast for a year now . I miss Lola Marshanda ( and again , im sorry ) And i dont need anyone else except Elfie . Look on the bright side Aida . People make mistakes in life . And from these mistakes we choose to make there are consequences . The question is , do you learn from your mistakes ? And even if you learn from your mistakes , are you gonna do that same damn thing again or change ? Someone back then told me we have to give and take in everything - in life , in school, in friendships , in the family and even in relationships . We can't possibly take all the time and never give or even vice-versa . I thought to myself again , what do we give and what do we exactly take from the other person ? I thought and thought but i still could not come up with a bloody perfect answer to this question . We can't make everyone happy all at one time . It is purely impossible . Our actions may hurt one party or maybe both , but please believe that everything happens for a reason . "I have millions of things running on my mind but nothing to type ." I have typed everything and emptied my heart . Labels: they dont understand |
Anna Aida
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