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2009-07-22T12:16:00.000+08:00

officially moved to

www.annadelove.onsugar.com

2009-07-17T12:25:00.001+08:00

If i had to tell you how humans made their way to Earth,it would go like this:

In the beginning, there was nothing at all but the moon and the sun.And the moon wanted to come out during the day, but there was something so much brighter that seemed to fill up all those hours. The moon grew hungry, thinner and thinner, until she was just a slice of herself, and her tips were as sharp as a knife. By accident, because that is the way most things happen, she poked a hole in the night and out spilled a million stars, like a fountain of tears.

Horrified the moon tried to swalow them up. And sometimes this worked,because she got fatter and rounder. But mostly,it didn't, because there were just too many. The stars kept coming, until they made the sky so bright that the sun got jealous. He invited the stars to his side of the world, where it was always bright. What he didn't tell them though, was that in daytime, they'd never be seen. So the stupid ones leaped from the sky to the ground, and they froze under the weight of their own foolishness.

The moon did her best. She carved each of these blocks of sorrow into a man or a woman. She spent the rest of her time watching out so that her other stars wouldn't fall.She spent the rest of her life holding on to whatever scrapes she had left.

-Jodi Picoult,My Sister's Keeper

2009-07-17T10:45:00.001+08:00

I was this close to tears .
I'll repeat .
I was THIS close to tears .

2009-07-16T21:35:00.000+08:00

Terima Kasih Cinta

2009-07-16T14:43:00.001+08:00

An Indian was having breakfast one morning- coffee, croissants, bread & jam when a Pakistani man, chewing gum, sits down next to him.The Indian ignores the Pakistani who, nevertheless, starts a conversation:

Pakistani: 'You Indian folks eat the whole bread??'

Indian (in a bad mood): 'Of course.'

Pakistani: (after blowing a huge bubble) 'We don't. In Pakistan, we only eat what's inside. The crusts we collect in a container, recycle it, transform them into croissants and sell them to India.'

The Pakistani has a smirk on his face.The Indian listens in silence.

The Pakistani persists: 'Do you eat jam with the bread??'

Indian : 'Of Course.'

Pakistani : (cracking his gum between his teeth andchuckling), 'We don't. In Pakistan we eat fresh fruit for breakfast, then we put all the peels, seeds, and leftovers in containers, recycle them, transform them into jam and sell the jam to India .'

The Indian then asks: 'Do you have sex in Pakistan ?'

Pakistani : 'Why of course we do', the Pakistani says with a big smirk.

Indian : 'And what do you do with the condoms once you've used them?'

Pakistani : 'We throw them away, of course.'

Indian : 'We don't. In India , we put them in a container,recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum and sell them to Pakistan.

2009-07-16T13:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was so wrong .
Whats worse , im sick today .

I didnt know my name is used for a cafeteria in other countries

2009-07-15T10:33:00.001+08:00

Is everyone's turning cold or isit just me ?

2009-07-14T09:10:00.001+08:00

Everything's wearing me out .

Everything

2009-07-13T21:57:00.004+08:00

Im at work currently . I was day-dreaming at the corner of Sportslink when i suddenly remembered about my school assignments . Heh heh heh so i gave an excuse to do my assignment . So here i am ! In the store-room doing my RJ and blogging too . I clocked in at seven just now , so i worked for four hours only . Yes am working tomorrow too . I gotta get use to this cramps .

This afternoon a classmate of mine shared her problems with me about her love life . She had in contact in the net with this particular guy for about 9 months and they had recently met on her birthday . Well the guy badly wanted to celebrate her birthday though . After 9 months of acquaintance the guy confessed that he liked her . No not like . He confessed that he love-d her . Since then my classmate confessed too because she had been keeping this a bloody secret .
Unfortunately after they met , things were never the same again . He wasn't as loving as before . He only gave a distant reply when she texted him . To add on to his bloody attitude , he borrowed her money a few times to entitle his prepaid and promised to pay back . Its been months and still , promises are meant to be broken ( not for me , thank you )

You see , this particular classmate of mine , has her flaws . I don't even know how to put this into words . She just has problems with her weight , thats all . But to tell you the truth , she has a good heart which not all people can achieve it with a snap of your finger . His impression of her must have changed ever since they met . Like i said , things were never the same , again .

She felt used . She didn't ask for more but just honesty , is that difficult for that guy to give ?

I kept thinking and thinking .

If the love and impression change right after the first time they met just because she's not physically beautiful or whatsoever ,
Does it even called love in the first place ?

Does love change or fade easily ?

I hope i will have the answer , one day .
One sweet day .

2009-07-13T09:54:00.005+08:00

Where has all the love in the world gone to ? I need to recoup back the distance i made away from God . High tide to be back again , to be devoted to Him again .

Cause like i said , thank God i found you , Elfie

Been working since Saturday and Sunday morning shift too . Im shagged , lifeless . Elfie came to fetch me from the airport after work and he surprised me with donuts . He could still make me smile and forget how lethargic i was after 7 solid hours of standing but I became alive again when i met him . We spent the night together . Yes inforgettable night together .

On a lighter note , i am really really really broke right now . Even insufficient transport fees . This is the main reason why i worked hard and not eating rice for consecutive 3 days . This is the worst time of my life besides major breakdown i gues . I have never ever been this weak . Now i can even fit into my tight denim jeans . Damn if i continue this i may just be reduce to skin and bones in no time . Can someone just blow me to dust ?

I have found out something shocking actually , but i think i'll give the post a miss . I wanna start that in a proper way .

Mondays have got to be the worst days of my life .

2009-07-11T13:30:00.002+08:00

Working at 4 later and i still hadn't got my white polo tee . Tsk .
I hope everything goes as planned unless im really not cut out for the job .
Come on , its just at Sportslink (insert the sepet face)

Its been 4 days since i last saw Elfie . I will be a patient girl and wait till Sunday *smiles*
Yes i can't wait to meet you , my babylove .

2009-07-10T15:43:00.002+08:00

My every wish and every dream

Somehow became reality

When you brought the sunlight

Completed my whole life

Im overwhelmed with gratitude

Cause baby im so thankful i found you

its friday

2009-07-10T14:58:00.003+08:00

Have you encountered a day when all things went wrong for you ?

Yes i mean the whole day .

communication

2009-07-09T09:29:00.003+08:00

After one month i will be officially not cash-less because i have a job now ! HahHAah yea it is at that Terminal 3 Sportslink starting this Saturday . I gotta salvage this situation of being broke almost all the time . Its high time for me to take up my own responsibility and cari duet Halal .

HahHAh thats cocky but yea thats about it .

I just got myself Freshlook green contacts and i don't like it . Tsk im planning to start scrimping and start dieting just to save my pocket money . Hopefully by having this job i can be more independant than to depend on my grandmother financially . Not to mention , the craze of shopping intervention . Can't wait can't wait . I could have just rush out now to buy yong tau foo at level 3 but the other me is pulling me saying 'nooooooooooo tiger nooooooo'.

But hey ! i managed to get over today's bloody temptation by just having fruits for lunch ! heh heh heh still hungry though but like the saying goes " Makan bila lapar , berhenti lah sebelum kenyang"

aarrgghhh

2009-07-08T10:05:00.005+08:00

so dull . so shitty .
Change blogskin soon !
till here , lovey-dovey-curvey-wurvey .

bonjour

2009-07-07T09:47:00.008+08:00

Hello you . Heh heh heh heh heh .
Well anyway , Elfie accompanied me to Terminal 3 yesterday to apply a part-time job at Sportslink . Yea i got it ( Thank God !!!! ) And i brought him to Terminal 1 staff canteen to have our lunch , my old work-place . Mind you , the mat m'sia are still working there . Little did i know that a woman from the Brunei Airline came once to find me .

The day has just only started but i can't wait for afternoon . Heh heh heh i can't wait for school to end to meet Elfie ! I had wanted him to pamper me with popcorns movie dates , kinder bueno chocolates , a lunch date at the Seoul Garden but ehem *economy merosot* i guess i have to tahan now but still Elfie i am contented with what i have now , which is YOU !! Yeap no doubt about it :D
Elfie thank you for making me happy and blessed and never fail to be by my side even though im shouting at the top of my lungs . Maybe its too early to say this but a month feels like years ! My wonderful love story somehow became reality , when i found you .
Thank God i found you (:

You and Me , always .

Gracias chikas .

science module

2009-07-03T14:09:00.005+08:00

Hold on i swear i have ALOT to blog today . Firstly , im fucking broke . ( okay broke = aida) anyway . I came to school this morning with only 2 pathetic bucks with me . And the moment i reach the RP entrance there was a big commotion ........

STUDENTS WITH NO THERMOMETER WERE NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER CLASS

I swear upon my grandpa's grave there were a whole lot of bunch trying to gain entry to school but couldnt because they did not have a thermometer with them . Well i was one of them . The officers told us to purchase the thermometers at 6 bucks from the RP staffs nearby the one stop center . Fucking 6 bucks where the hell am i gonna dig that amount of money when i just have my pathetic 2 bucks in my ripcurl wallet ?!

I sat down for awhile and soon saw some students going back out of the school . I was thinking about going back home but i can't bear the feeling of missing class . ( Yea thats me ) . My girl-friend was being so kind so as to lend me 5 bucks and i forked out a dollar to to purchase that fucking thermometer . Bloody hell i was flaring up at that point of time . I owe Azleen 5 bucks .

Lesson was aye - okay today . That malay - can - speak - chinese girl said that im hot . What the fuck haha .

im off

2009-07-02T20:47:00.005+08:00

Fuck - it

I guess we all make mistakes . But you were my biggest .
Thinking back , i don't make mistakes . I just date them .

announcement !

2009-07-02T10:14:00.010+08:00

First day of school ...... riggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhtttttttt -_____-

Woke-up bloody early and still wasnt sleepy . Got on bus with Azleen and still wasnt asleep throughout the whole journey .

WHY AM I SO EXCITED ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL (!!!!???!!!! )

Im applying a job at Terminal 3 . I hope i can get it . No i MUST get it . Im in dire straits already . Until i have to starve on the first day of school .

STARVE ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL .

Die.

twilight

2009-06-30T04:03:00.003+08:00

"I'd do anything to protect you , Bella"

Time checked .
4:03 AM

lighten off

2009-06-27T00:49:00.007+08:00

I have so much to blog about but my hands are stuck . Alot of things i wanna share but i don't know where to start . Shiat i hate this part right here .

First things first , my school closes for a freaking week for year 1 ( yes it means i need not come school for a fucking joking week ) due to the flu crisis . WAIT WAIT this does not spell hooray for me cause we have to do E-learning on our laptop and be on it from 8.30 am till 3.30pm just like normal school time basis . YES what the fuck i know . On the contrary this virus thing is getting more serious than i thought . Oh God .

Earlier this morning i was online and doing my school assignment online when i saw my classmate's MSN pm goes " MJ RIP ? NO WAY" . I was wondering who is MJ and she told me it was Micheal Jackson . I could not believe it either but "dengan kuase Tuhan" the Indonesian channel my granny was watching showed some news about MJ's death . Okay that's confirmed MJ really had passed away . The King Of Pop has gone . At least i was proud he had converted into Islam . But it got me thinking , when will be the day that i die ? Life is so unpredictable when it comes to life and death . ( Only God knows )

On the sidetrack i was blog hopping and happened to view this particular gorgeous girl and found out that she had a new boyfriend after breaking up with her ex-boyfriend . The relationship was quite long as far as i know and i knew they went through thick and thin together before separating . I was shocked yet salute that girl at the same time . Cause she found that courage to move on with another guy whom she really feels can be her other half after all those sacrifices she made for her previous relationship . She did not give up on this thing called Love . She assured her ex boyfriend that she would not get him and other girls into some deep shits like how his ex girlfriends did to make her life miserable when she was with him . Am i supposed to declare it sincere love instead of true love ? Because she was able to forgive and forget about the past even though it was such a difficult relationship and had sacrificed alotttttttt for the happiness for the relationship but in the end they know it was not meant to be ?
Is this what i call sincere love from her ? Definitely not true love cause true love stays forever but her owning a big heart by moving on in life and to forgive and forget the past , is it really was a sincere love ?

No matter how tough your life is gonna be , no matter how dark your life might be , just remember there will be a light at the end of the tunnel .

See that smile ? And so , im gonna get back that smile , very soon .
Very soon .

"My life is just as happy as it is . But your presence will add meaning to my life ."

Tablo the coolest shit

2009-06-24T00:52:00.006+08:00

Now this is tha S-H-I-A-T (!)
Tablo's tha sex ! He's the one in white btw .
God i should be turning in NOW . There's still school tomorrow . But how come i feel so Friday ?

HARD NEGOTIATION

2009-06-23T14:30:00.007+08:00

Second post of the day . Sigh ... Wait let me count . An hour left to go before the lesson ends . Again , SIGH . At this rate , i doubt we'll finish on time . Enterprise module is always taking up much time even after school . On the contrary i did very well for Mathematics presentation yesterday ! I was actually able to do the whole presentation of First Impression of an article . Not forgetting , i've got C+ for my Mathematics module UT *drops jaw to the ground* I FUCKING PASSED MY FIRST UT MODULE . C+ wasnt so bad after all comparing to my other ex scool-mates .

And now , i can't wait for my team's turn to present .Cause why ? CAUSE WE ARE THE LAST TEAM TO PRESENT BEFORE SCHOOL ENDS . HahHAhHahAH i did research on hard negotiation . No idea what it is about ? It got me thinking HARD though . ( Just smile if you get my lame joke )

Today is a happy day for me .
Yesterday was a happy day for me .
Everyday is a happy day for me .
And tomorrow is going to be a happy day for me too ....
i hope .

Its been ages since i last posted pictures .. cause i have no friends . AIDA the loner girl . Woah that sounds so ......not me .

You know whats me ?

AIDA = ANTI-ENTERPRISE FACI

hectic

2009-06-23T11:04:00.006+08:00

Have i ever told you that i hate my new enterprise facilitator ?
Yea fuck that .
Totally hate her .
Me no likey faci

I am now offiicially ANTI-ENTERPRISE FACI .

I have been on a unhealthy diet since Monday . Dont ask why or what . Im penniless now .
Ok maybe i should rephrase this .

Hi im Aida .
Im still schooling , am broke now and forever and jobless since forever .
What more can a 17 year old ask for ?

wretched

2009-06-20T21:52:00.018+08:00

I have millions of things running on my mind but nothing to type .
I have the time in the whole world to blog but im in a rush .
I want to talk about alot of issues here but i can't find the words to type it out here.
I was just helping but i lost my very best girlfriend and her trust for me .
I used to be a very happy girl but now im not talking and smiling like i always did back then .
I had best friends but now i rarely have close friends by my side .
I used to laugh and cry with my best of girlfriends but now i miss those memories .
I was always so proud of being me but now i am just so afraid of exposing myself to the world .
I thought i have everything but i lost almost everything with just a snap of a finger .
I had always loved running and swimming around but now i prefer sitting down admiring the sunset at Marina Barrage .

If only i could cancel out the Buts in those sentences .
If only .

I miss Grandpa .
I miss Phyna .
I miss Az and gang .
I hate school .
Im sorry Lola .
I hate myself for being such a bad friend . How could i ...
I hate myself for forgetting God almost all the time .
I want to work .
I miss basketball .
I hate having regrets .
I need a hug .
I want chocolates now .
I crave for caramel frappe .
I have not eaten big breakfast for a year now .
I miss Lola Marshanda ( and again , im sorry )

And i dont need anyone else except Elfie .

Look on the bright side Aida . People make mistakes in life . And from these mistakes we choose to make there are consequences . The question is , do you learn from your mistakes ? And even if you learn from your mistakes , are you gonna do that same damn thing again or change ?
Someone back then told me we have to give and take in everything - in life , in school, in friendships , in the family and even in relationships . We can't possibly take all the time and never give or even vice-versa . I thought to myself again , what do we give and what do we exactly take from the other person ? I thought and thought but i still could not come up with a bloody perfect answer to this question .

We can't make everyone happy all at one time . It is purely impossible . Our actions may hurt one party or maybe both , but please believe that everything happens for a reason .

"I have millions of things running on my mind but nothing to type ."
I have typed everything and emptied my heart .

wei jie beside me

2009-06-19T12:40:00.007+08:00

Finally ........ Thank God its Friday !

I need money from the sky .

God , grant me my dream job .

No no not that Geylang one .

SHAGGED

2009-06-17T10:24:00.017+08:00

It feels like donkey years since i last typed something here . School has started few days back and my oh my , im shagged . Totally shagged since last Friday ( AT LAST I HAD A FUCKIN NICE SWIM AT SENTOSA ) until my body aches everytime i wake up as early as six to shower and go to school . As usual me being the kambeng Aida ( HA HA ) , were late for class 3 days consecutively . It takes time to adapt to Monday Blues and getting up early and feel the morning dew everyday though . I have a new facilitator and she turns my sweet dreams into a nightmare . Again i shall say NIGHTMARE . She made my heart race fast with those " very action - questions " when presenting . I dont like it . But i like being with Elfie cause he makes my heart race fast every single time he holds my hand , kisses my forehand and even hugs me !

Days felt like years , and theres nothing more i can ask for but to yearn for his love .

;With You Im Loved .

Through The Rain

2009-06-13T18:26:00.007+08:00

I couldnt find the official music video on youtube so i decided to make do with this video . But i strongly encourage you guys ( whoever is reading this and is interested to know more ) to watch the official music video of the song Through The Rain by Mariah Carey . There is a story behind this fantastic song . I have to take my hat off for Mariah Carey because her songs are in fact very very meaningful indeed . From her songs i can actually learn something valuable . About things in life , about myself , about how i should take things in life and even making me realise that nothing is impossible in this magical world of wonder .

I once wrote a note to self , "When you feel the world come crushing down on you , DONT GIVE UP ." I hold that note to myself till now , till this very minute . I hold tighter to my faith everytime i am faced with a setback , be it a major or a minor one . Like people always say , there will always be a light at the end of the dark tunnel ( sorry i forgot the real phrase heh heh heh ) . If people take these phrases into account , i can gurantee you that you will feel blessed surrounded with people who are willing to go through thick and thin with you .

On a lighter note , i am very very very very very very happy and blessed to have Elfie by my side almost round the clock . I am proud to say that this is the beginning of everything and having able to share my happiness with this step cute guy yang tak menjadi . ( HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA jokes la awakk )

And this is the lyrics to the song . AND AND AND i would like to dedicate this song to Elfie (:

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you’re distraught
And in pain without anyone
When we keep crying out
To be safe
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
you can get there alone
it's okay
what you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you’ll find what you need to prevail
Once you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face
And should they tell you
You’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate
Stand tall and say
Yeah yeah yeahhhh

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I'll make it through the rain

PS : ELFIE PLEASE GIVE ME A TEXT WHEN YOU'VE READ THIS
Hugs and Kisses

zerosevenzerosixzeronine

2009-06-09T23:51:00.006+08:00

Out of my head in a memory of you.

I'll never forget what you put me through.

It wasn't right, what you did.

But I was just as wrong as you.

I took you back, just for you to destroy me again . That's what you get for still having faith in someone who had broke your heart into unmend pieces.

When I watch the sky above,

or when I watch the fields below,

I can't help but notice that your hand rests in mine.

I can't help but stealing a peek of you smiling at the corner of my eyes.

I can't help but closing my eyes in the cinema.

Words can never really say what the heart can really feel. So let these moments show you.

JIWER

2009-06-05T22:32:00.008+08:00

I miss those times . I miss those laughter we had everytime we had an outing . I miss the smiles on each of your faces everytime time you guys see me laugh ( like i need an oxygen tank , i know) . I remember the first time i met you guys in a class chalet but i was the only one who was not your classmate besides Atiqah and kak Nab's boyfriend ( i think ) . HA HA HA since then i became a part of you guys . The feeling's so great that i felt that you guys were the best for me . the best i could ever had . I forget the world when i am with you guys , especially with Dino and Matin ( and you should be freaking proud that i still remember you even after korang da ader girlpren ! ) . Thats why i was so jiwerrrr with you guys .

But so soft and slow , its fading away .... far away . I guess imperfection is the only value that made friendships lost along the way . How heart-breaking it is to know how the word A PART became APART to me . My apologies for puting him my priority than you guys , i guess i finally realised nothing is more intangible than family and friends .

Never make someone your everything , because when you lose that someone , you will have nothing .

Like i said again and again , that is so true .

On top of all , i miss Elfie (3 sad faces for me pleaseeeeeeeee)

PS - If korang happen to read this post , you guys should give me call or text to thank me (:

Memories hold in my heart , always .

dedicated to you love

2009-06-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

Where is this bubbly - cheerful - the smile girl who laughs even at the slightest thing ?

Where has this oh-forget-the-world-when-with-friends girl gone to ?
I wonder ...... Where's my kambeng laughter which cheers everyone around me up when they hear it ?

HA HA HA i gotta search for it , real soon .
.
.
.

Crack that babies . Search for it ? Nahhh . I did that wayy back time boy, wayy back time . I searched for it high and low , up the mountains and down the drains and hills at Bukit Merah only to know that it is right in front of me .

But it's time to be me now , cause last night i went to bed with a gigantic smile plastered on my face . At last , after so long .
Call me your sugar , pretty please flameboy ?

2009-06-01T18:28:00.007+08:00

BUT SOMETIMES , YOU CAN'T TRUST A PERSON OF THE SAME GENDER

Everything happens for a reason babygirl .

I DONT UNDERSTAND

2009-06-01T15:30:00.001+08:00

Sometimes , i don't even know if the people around me are for real .
Imma take off tonight .
Fuck that shit . Why isit that i still don't learn the bloody lesson ?
Bloody hell jackass .

MONSTER VS ALIENS

2009-06-01T14:30:00.001+08:00

Saturday evening was well-spent with Elfie at town . I made him wait for me at the interchange OMG Elfie i am so sorry . Heh heh . We watched this movie 3D at Cineleisure Cathay before going home . It was cool ! My first movie with Elfie & my first time watching a 3D movie . To make it more personalised , i shall say i had a lovely night . A day feels like years ... Heh heh heh . Wont elaborate on it any further *winks*

Not forgetting to say that Kok Wei looked great on the field this evening . HA HA . Well even though you guys still lose in the end but still they looked hot on the field chasing after one ball to get into the goal net . Woah like dogs huh . (Oopsy)

In addition to today's entry , my holidays are already here (please insert a triple sad faces here) because i have no plans for these 2 weeks of holidays . No freaking plans ! Somebody strangle me please . I guess i am back to square one - rot at home like a fat kambeng /donkey ( thats what my classmates call me in class by the way)

I changed my skin - AGAIN ! huahuahuahuahuahua .I dont find theres a need for me to write it here because its obviously changed -___________- but oh well its okay since my eyes now are semi-opened . YES NOW I AM TYPING WHILE CLOSING MY EYES . I SLEEP EARLY NOWADAYS ! hahaha crack that .

ok now this will be my first happy post after so long .....
After i know Elfie (: *winks*

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

2009-05-29T08:29:00.000+08:00

So reminds me of Elfie .